Back to the Future

It means your future hasn't been written yet. No one's has. Your future is whatever you make it. So make it a good one.

 I usually wake up a few times in the middle of the night. Some would call it a restless sleep. I call it my regular routine. Last night was no different. But I don't mind it, most of the time. Most of the time, I enjoy the feeling of falling back asleep and dreaming. Last night I kept waking from the constant buzz of people at a party next door and the vibrations of a loud bass. To top it off, being sick and having a cough makes things more complicated. 

But I got to sleep in, so I woke in good spirits. After waiting too long for the shower, and making myself a cup of morning tea, I headed out the door. Picking up some snacks, missing my bus stop, discovering that Tubingen has a graveyard and walking all the way to Lisa's house, I finally arrived for our scheduled Back to the Future marathon. Israel actually decided to join us this time, and it made me happy to see things begin to go back to how they once were. I miss spending time with him. We even spent some time excitably talking about The World Cup in June. In a half hour, Chelsea and Mike arrived and we made tomatoes with mozzarella and started the first movie.

After 5 hours of movies, 4 spilled drinks (one of which, I wore), one bag of popcorn, and insisting that Lisa's mom look like one of the actresses, we were finally finished. Rubbing my eyes and trying not to yawn, I kissed Lisa on the cheek and said goodbye. I'd see her the next day, and I had some much deserved rest to catch up on. 

Yet here I am. Still awake. ^__^ Seems to happen a lot. I don't mind. Tonight I'm awake because of what Doc said in Back to the Future (^above quote^). I use to worry a lot more about the future. It always made me anxious. It was like something I felt I couldn't control because so much depended on it. It was always so messy and complicated to think about. Now, I am sometimes comfortable knowing only a few things are certain in the future. One of them is that my sister will always be around, even if she doesn't live by me. And the other is something I hope will be as great as I think it will be.

Ah, Future, you don't scare me so much these days. And maybe, someday I'll actually look forward to you all the time.